.Issues.

Everyone has his own personal issues. Even myself. My own personal issues are not that hard as others had, for example i can't sleep well if my sheets were distracted [and unfortunately, it happened a lot, since my sister is always using her gasing - circled and spinning - pose for sleep].

But aside from all that not-important aka meaningless issues, sometimes i had a serious one. At least i thought it's a serious thing. But i dont have any skill to say it out loud without sounded silly.
You know, sometimes i met people who have ability to talk about unimportant things with a really good way, so that things looked like soooo important for your life. I wish i am one of them.

Anyway it's just another random talks.

Another rant, my period is coming right now, and it starts make me nervous. and lonely. blah stupid hormones!

.Things.

There's too much things to do.

There's too much things to learn.

There's too much things to think.







...and none of them is understandable yet....
.June 27th, 2009.

.Ba-So, Pluit Village.

Grilled Squid Ball [23K], tasted like otak-otak, dipped into chili sauce, served with salad with some mayo. so-so lah....

.27 June 2009.

Okay, this post is totally random.
Lately, this one has been my favourite breakfast on weekend. My sister likes her toast filled first by Nutella or Skippy and then toasted it. But me, I prefer the plain one. Toast with a tick of Anchor Butter, and served with Knott's Blueberry Jam. The salty Anchor Butter for the best taste. Yeah, this one is definitely a guilty pleasure for my BP.

One of my favourite month in a year is the one when Bakcang started appear in fresh market [it doesnt always the same month, coz i'm using Gregorian and Chinese events like this one using Lunar]. Well, unlike the Bakcang which is full of meat [and sin, of course :| ], another variety that i like is Kicang. Kicang is the sweet type of Bakcang, still made from sticky rice, and sometimes filled by red bean. It can be served in 2 ways, hot and cold. And it usually came with 2 compliments, Srikaya or Sugar. My favourite is Kicang with no filling, served hot [really hot , still fresh from the steaming device :p], and of course, with cold Srikaya, preferable Srikaya Medan, the fresh one especially :) Ah a true bliss :)
My sister made me a chocolate pudding few last weeks. And served with frozen strawberry. Not bad :)
Another thing that I like. Rujak :)

Well, that's it for now.

.Current Thoughts.

My throat is killing me.

My nose is kinda bleeding right now, aside from meler a whole day.

My body is sick.

-__- Sometimes i wish i am in a constantly-healthy-condition. And dont say i dont put any effort to make it happen, i do sports, i do eat healthy food, i do clean my mind from bad thoughts, i just... sick a lot? :|

Another rant, lately i've been swimming a lot. A. lot. means 3-4 times for a week. Well for a lazy bad-ass person like i am, i would say it's kinda amazing :P and also i granted my self for a little treat, i bought a speedo glasses! :P and a new swimsuit of course.

Talking about my current brought items, Jakarta has been totally tempting myself a lot for this month. During Jakarta's birthday, most of the store are giving discount. A really big one. GOSH! I almost kalap seeing that red sign everywhere in mall : SALE.

Well, at least since my gym schedule is my number #1 top priority right now,so i dont shop a lot. hmmm not as much as i used to be in this kinda of time, i think :P haha!

Anyway, my new job is only 1 month ahead. I never been packed for leaving, and left an empty space for someone's next, so it's kinda awkward to do this kinda of thing. sometimes i felt, did i choose the right thing? sometimes i felt, well it's the right thing to do. being randomly up-and-down about one thing, is not the best thing in this world.

Ah what am i gonna say, the words have spoken, and i had my choice. Let's get it done.

.Future.

Saat ini, mungkin saat paling crucial dalam hidup saya sejauh ini. Untuk pertama kalinya, saya memilih resign dari pekerjaan. Nga mudah tentunya, banyak hal yang membuat saya bertanya, berpikir dan mencari pengertian dari semuanya itu.

Dan nga semuanya mendapat jawaban.

Puji Tuhan, berapa hr ini dalam banyak kesempatan, sepertinya banyak hal yang memberikan pandangan baru soal dunia serta etos kerja. Saya belajar banyak. Banyak sekali. Dalam seminggu ini cukup berat rasanya, dari rasa bersalah, sampai rasa marah dan kesal semua sepertinya ada di dalam kepala.


Tuhan, kuatkan saya melewati semua ini.

.Hachi Hachi, Taman Anggrek.

Okay, revisited again and again :P

I only could take 3 shoots on this visit, the food was came in fast queue, and of course with our enthusiasm [aka glutonny mode ON], i didnt have any opportunity to shoot a lot. well anyway, i tried their tobiko [8K] and believe me, with that price, it was a really really great deal. the tobiko was really generous! The Grilled Honey Salmon was okay, although i didnt really taste any honey sauce. And Rainbow Roll, as always, in my must-order list!

Sorry for the photo quality, mind my phone cam :P
The week after that, we went to Hachi Hachi again. This time i went with one purpose, i need to try their fusion sushi. We ordered Deep Fried Salmon Skin [19K, not in the menu if i'm not mistaken], Volcano Roll [27K], Salmon Tower Maki [35K], Sushi Pizza [30K], Unakyu Roll [30K], Dragon Roll [34K], Tuna Sandwich Roll [25K], and others that i didnt remember.

The Volcano Roll - deep fried sushi tower [i dont remember the filling, maybe some cucumber and crab stick], and some chili sauce on the top, was quite in generous portion. it tasted ok, a lil bit too sticky, and i'm not really into deep fried food.

Sushi Pizza - i thought the bun was a bread, nope, they're using rice. Deep fried, and filled with meat, vegetables, etc. Hm...i dont know what to say, i try to eat this with the most elegant way. Bah, it ended with me screwing the sushi -__-

Btw, I found myself was craving more for their Tuna Sandwich Roll, dont know why, maybe because it tasted like cheese burger, but with salmon filling instead of beef. But the best of that night was Salmon Tower Maki, the filling were crab stick and seaweed, and a bit of sliced oranges, tobiko, and salmon on the top of it. I never thought that Salmon and orange would be a perfect combination!

Anyway, i think sushi is one of things-you-dont-wanna-eat-on-your-first-date list. It goes the same way with burger, spaghetti, etc. Sushi [for me] has to be eaten a whole package, in one grab, in one sip, after it served. I think i'm not attractive when i'm eating sushi, not that i am THAT attractive when i'm not eating it anyway :P

.One Thing.

....leads to another thing.

It's like you're dreaming your best dream ever, but you know you'll wake up soon.
It's like you're swimming, but you know you're swimming in a small plastic bag.
It's like you're starting to draw your imagination, but you know you dont have any chalk anymore.



Gosh.
i hate this feeling.

.Another To-Do-List.

1. BELAJAR. especially IT things, i've been stacking some books in my room, without knowing any chance to read any of them :(
2. NABUNG. no doubt on this.
3. MASAK. okay this one is kinda difficult now, but i believe one day i can read this post again and laughing on my lack of cooking skill in my past. Amien on that!
4. GYM. harus lebih semangat!
5. SABAR. my patience has been running out these days, well maybe i dont scream like in hell each time there's problem, but i know that even for a little problem or a little unconvinient thing in my daily life, it can turn my temper go as fast like a F1 car. Although i'm not spilling it out at all. Point #5 could be the most hardest thing to do. I dont express my real emotion much, but since last new year , i put "express your emotion more" in my new year resolution, and i think i run a little to far with that.

ahhh too much things in my head right now. Actually i think the most important thing right now is i should really remember that everything's in God's hand.

okay now it's time to go home, and sleep -__-

.A Little Quote For Him.

a little walk can reminds me of your smile,

a little run can reminds me of your story,

a little rest can reminds me of your thought,







but i dont mind do the marathon, if it's you on the finish line.
*a little note for someone whom i'll fall in love with.

.Shadow.

...when shadow means there's a light beyond.....

.Kota Tua, Jakarta 2009.

.Fall Again.

.Project for Akoer Publisher.
.Jessica Hadiwidjaja + Anthony Alvin, TC Studio 2009.
.MUA : Ina Cahyadi.

and as always, some that i'd rather in BW...


and few beauty shots..

.Existence.

Saya akui, dunia gym adalah baru bagi saya. Sekumpulan perempuan yang tidak saling mengenal saling berbagi ruangan ganti dan mandi, cukup membuka mata saya lagi akan tipe2 perempuan di dunia ini. Maklum, sejak lulus kuliah saya jarang menemukan kenalan baru yang bergender perempuan.
Sewaktu masi sekolah, saya kira ada beberapa tipe perempuan yang hanya ada di dunia film atau buku. Begitu kuliah, saya baru menyadari, ya tokoh2 di dalam dunia film atau buku itu ada, ya karena memang ada contoh konkritnya. how naive i was huh? :P
And anyway, salah satu tipe perempuan itu adalah perempuan ini.

Sebut aja namanya A. dia cantik, putih, rambutnya panjang, tipikal yang rela berdandan 1-2 jam untuk sekedar pergi ke mall, etc. Saya tahu dari teman saya kalau brosur gym tempat saya latihan, memakai dia sebagai model. Dan saya rasa kalian2 ini tahu seberapa indahnya dia.

Tapi dari beberapa kali pertemuan saya dengan dia, saya selalu ingin tertawa. Setiap kali bertemu, saya selalu mendengar dia berkata pada perempuan lain, betapa cantiknya perempuan itu, betapa bagus bodynya, etc. Mungkin kalau cuma 1-2x dia ngomong gituh, saya pikir hanya berbasa basi biasa. Tapi sepertinya memang dia sering ngmg gituh, dan tentu saja jelas selalu di balas dengan pujian balik dr perempuan yang di puji si A, "ah kamu juga cantik kok..", dst. Dan akan selalu di bales dengan dia "ah ndak mungkin, aku kan kurus rata gini..",etc.

Saya mengetahui taktik "merendah untuk dipuji balik", saya akui saya kadang2 pake taktik kaya begini, tapi lucu juga melihat seorang perempuan yang secantik dia memuji seorang perempuan lain yang notabene jelas agak kurang [maap] cantik, untuk sekedar dipuji balik.

Entah kenapa, saya menangkap si A ini butuh pengakuan yang luar biasa banyak dari orang lain, istilahnya pingin exist :P Mungkin pemikiran saya yang terlalu negatif, mungkin dia memang bermaksud baik dan manis mulut saja. Atawa mungkin ini hanya omong kosong seorangprempuan yang emang tidak cantik dan berbody yahud seperti si A :P

Ya anyway moral yang saya pelajari hari ini, merendah untuk dipuji balik itu penting, tapi pilih target yang benar, nanti malahan kesannya butuh eksistensi banget lagi... :)

Ngmg2, saya harus lebih giat cardio lagi nih! -__-

.Ba-So, Pluit Village.

Ba-So
Pluit Village 4th Floor No. 18
Ph. (021) 66602952

Di Megamall, ups Pluit Village skrg namanya, banyak restoran baru bermunculan, salah satunya Ba-So. Dari dlu gue ingin coba makan di sini, sayang belum ada kesempatan. Jadi malam minggu kemaren setelah belanja belenji, akhirnya gue ke sini, kebetulan lagi agak sepi lagi restonya :)

Tempatnya nga begitu besar, tapi cukup nyaman, interior yang dipakai juga menarik, memberikan kesan luas. Well tapi yang paling penting adalah makanannya. Banyak pilihan baksonya, tapi mirip semua yak. Akhirnya kita pesan Baso Rawit 22K, Tom Yam 16K [sepertinya promo dari 22K], Rosella Lime Juice 15K dan Fried Gyoza 13.5K.

Basonya agak bikin bingung sih sebenernya, karena dalam 1 mangkok itu ada baso sapi, dan baso seafood juga. Baso sapi itu kan dimana2 enaknya kuahnya di campur saos dan kecap, sedang baso seafood itu kan enaknya dicampur cabe cair aja cukup. Jadi agak bingung meramu kuahnya deh hehehe.. Taste kuahnya agak mirip pa-pa [merk pasta instan yang dari thailand], asin2 gurih gituh.

Tom Yamnya not bad, segar di mulut, untungnya nga ada campuran baso sapi di dalamnya, kalok ada, lebih bingung lagi gua hehehe... Gyozanya memakai daging ayam serta ada side dish salad. Sedikit berasa ‘tepung’ tapi okay. Rosella Lime Juicenya gue nga tau sih campurannya, yang pasti cuma berasa Limenya doank hahaha...

Ya anyway mungkin akan mampir lagi mencoba dessert and tom yamnya :)

.Ciz and Chic, Untar.

Dulu2 waktu gue lagi masa2 akhir kuliah, Ciz and Chic baru buka di Binus, and lagi naek2 daunnya. Rame banget...and gue inget banget pas hari gue sidang, setelah sidang and pengumuman hasilnya [puji Tuhan lulus donkkkk], baru deh perut gue berasa laper and akhirnya mau makan ini. Eh baru duduk 5 menit, ternyata gue ude harus cabut karena kunci kos temen gue masi ada di gue, and dia mau balik kos, terpaksa deh niat makan Ciz and Chic gue urungkan huhu..and sejak itu gue belum sempet nyoba lagi, padahal pengen banget.

Dan 2 minggu lalu, waktu gue mampir liat pameran PFT di Untar, di ajak temen gue makan malam, ternyata gue di bawa ke sini. ternyata Ciz and Chic ada buka juga di Untar! Yay!

Bener banget kata temen gue, murah banget and porsinya banyak. Soal french fries, fish chips, and goreng2an lainnya sih buat gue biasa aja ya, tapi gue sempet pesen 1 menu yg cukup mengejutkan, yaitu Spaghetti Tuna Pedas. Di foto emang terlihat agak menjijikan, kaya cacing yak hehehe... tapi rasanya donk....rasa jengkol. Seriously, pas datang gue ude mencium bau jengkol, waktu gue makan, whewww bener2 rasa jengkol. Temen gue pas nyicip juga bingung kok rasa jengkol. Well secara gue ude berbulan2 nga makan jengkol, sedot aja deh, hajar bleh wwkkkwkwkw...

Definetely will be back for their Spaghetti Jengkol hehehehe...

.Bobby's Grill, Tanjung Duren.

Beberapa minggu lalu, setelah photoshoot yang melelahkan [which btw meninggalkan banyak jejak gigitan nyamuk di kaki gue, ampe skrg! Ampe ungu2 gituh deh :( ] akhirnya gue and kawan2 makan ke Kwetiao Akang, Kota , dan dilanjutkan ke Bobby’s Grill di Tanjung Duren.

Agak sepi restonya, karena letaknya di tengah2 jalan kali ya. Ya anyway menu andalan mereka adalah steak daging hiu, agak ajaib jg ye. Kasian banget ya hiu2 itu, secara populasi mereka kan ude turun banget :|

Kawan2 yang lain sedang dilanda ngidam steak, so mereka pesan Tenderloin Steak. Gue lupa harga pastinya, tp seinget gue sangat worthed kok, dengan harga kayanya sekitar 50rb dapet steak yang ok kok. Steaknya dipanggang di atas hot stone, dengan kentang and sedikit sayur as side dish. Gue pribadi bukan penggemar steak jadi nga nyicip, tapi katanya mereka sih ok :) Oh ya sempet nyicip pisang bakarnya, sausnya saus lemon + taburan cinnamon, agak aneh di lidah gue kali ya...pisangnya juga kaya belum masak banget ude dpanggang, jadi keras2 gituh deh...Anyway karena gue ude kenyang, akhirnya cm pesen Sprite Honey Dew, sejenis soda dengan sirup, diberi selasih serta corn flake dan kismis. Agak aneh ya campurannya, ternyata enak jga loh :) yang menyenangkan adalah tempat makannya terpisah dari tempat bakarannya, jadi ya..nga banyak makan asap deh hari itu :)

Mungkin besok2 gue akan ke sini lagi, kalau lagi ngidam steak ya..

.My Next Obsession.

Terpujilah Tuhan untuk menciptakan ruangan yang bernama gym.
*especially the one which filled by sweaty hot guys with killer biseps.










okay, that was cheesy.
treadmill, here i come!

.He's Just Not That Into You.

Alex: If a guy treats you like he doesn't give a sh*t, it's because he doesn't give a shit.

- He's Just Not That Into You, Ken Kwapis, 2009.

.Realized.

i realized many things lately.
too many things.
to learn.
to do.
and to think.








and i realized i did many things.
too many things.
to learn.
to sorry.
and to let go.



I think....



I think too much.

.Someday Soon.

.Project for Akoer Publisher.
.MUA : Lidya Hutagalung.
.Directing and Styling : me and Catrin Leonard.
.Jessica Hadiwidjaja, Kuningan, 2009.


and of course, some that i'd rather in BW...


much love,

XOXOXO